The Laboratory of Love
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Party Theory in Hurqalya
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Friday, September 3, 2010
New York Unexpurgated, Part Two: The Guidebook
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Transmuting the Stone
I spent ten days in July and August in nearly unremitting agony. The disproportionate amount of pain sparked by a one centimeter kidney stone astonished me. In the 48 hours after visiting the ER, my consciousness was narrowed to a dismal pinpoint as nausea from Vicodin swirled with hot icepick stabs in the kidney. There was no comfortable way to lie, sit or stand. I slept when I passed out for a few hours, only to wake up drenched in sweat. I was given more medicine to combat the nausea so I could take the Vicodin, which was quickly diminishing in efficacy. I barely ate, just enough to buffer each fistful of assorted pills. I lost eight pounds in ten days and have yet to recover my appetite. I had no hunger, no desire, and only fever dreams. I was unable to enjoy sunlight lest I endure even more side effects of my medication.
It had already been a challenging shake-or-get-shaken-year. Everything was in flux. It felt like a period of mutation. I was not only reacting to a series of unusual ordeals, I had already decided to aggressively change several parts of my life and was succeeding beyond expectation. I had a new sense of equilibrium and freshness of life's possibilities. I was having more fun and felt creatively engaged. To celebrate and mark my passage, I planned a series of events, beginning with a Walpurgisnacht festival and culminating in an esoteric Moorish Feast & Jubilee. Strange and wonderful things were happening and events tend to facilitate the possibilities. I woke up one May morning, after an unexpectedly wonderful evening, with a head full of verse.
About the time that I was to begin preparation for the last event in the series, I was brought to my knees by pain. Family members, friends and my doctor urged me to cancel the Jubilee. It was an impossibly ambitious scheme and I was effectively out of commission for theforeseeable future. I could barely think straight and the only relief in sight was Extracorporeal Shock Wave Lithotripsy; blasting the stone with infra-sound five days prior to the party. I had no idea how woozy and weak this would leave me.
I was sustained by two thoughts. The first, bolstered by the weight of experience, was that one's capacity to endure pain increases one's ability to experience pleasure and bliss. When in pain, endure and plan. When in bliss, gush. The second was that I could alleviate some of my stress and discomfort by bombarding myself with hours of gleefully buoyant music. I would stagger to the stereo for 70 minutes at a stretch, making party mixes heavy with Cab Calloway, string band music, cartoon jazz and frenzied trance rhythms from the Middle East. Then I would collapse in a hot bath with a stack of research material and check my audio work. It was exhausting and ill-advised but it felt right. It was my ritual of overcoming.
Had it not been for friends stepping up, the Moorish Qiyamat would have been greatly diminished. As for my own ordeal, the event occurred at almost the exact moment that I ceased being in pain. I had no idea that relief from suffering could be so ecstatic. I had the wonderful, cleansed feeling of having been chased out of myself for a while. All my senses were, and are, fresh and ticklish. Returning to life and work, I felt like some secret stranger with a heightened sense of absurdity. As Mustafa explained to guests at the Jubilee, Qiyamat, to the mystic, means "uncovering." For me, the price for this was having superfluous layers of thought and habit sand-blasted away by crazy amounts of pain. The patina was driven from my senses and I was able to celebrate this transition with beloved friends at just the right time. And many of them seemed to be celebrating rigorous or joyous transitions of their own, which lent the occasion a heady, intoxicating atmosphere.
Whatever else may mark the balance of this year, I feel better prepared than ever before. I'm hungry for fresh experience and mad to create. I feel renewed and re-invigorated, pleased to be part of a community of creative, inspired individuals. My stone has passed and my egg has hatched. Blinking in the sunlight of this new morning, I'm at peace with the world, walking in new shoes with new purpose and a fresh sense of Mystery. I have no regrets and a keen eye for interesting possibilities. If you pressed me, I'd have to say that things are about to get very interesting. It's wonderful to have friends with whom to strike sparks. Sooner or later something will catch.
"I've given up on my brain. I've torn the cloth to shreds and thrown it away. If you're not completely naked, wrap your beautiful robe of words around you, and sleep."
-Jilaladin Rumi
Friday, July 9, 2010
Evocation of Malak Taus
Malak Taus, Peacock Angel, Chief of the Heften,
Lord of feathers and scales, who, from fragments
Of the Primal Pearl, repaired Creation, we honor thee!
By fire refined, crafted from God’s radiance,
First of the seven Archangels.
We honor thy tearful brilliance!
Undone by your love of the Almighty,
You refused to bow before Adam and were cast down.
Repair this fractured sphere, we beseech you.
Torn from grace for the sake of Love, you fell.
Your tears poured for 7,000 years,
Filled the seven vessels with grief,
And these were poured out
Upon the fires of Hell, to quench them.
Serpent of Wisdom, Angel of Love,
There is no share of wickedness in you.
From white light, you draw out colors.
It is you who confers troubles and blessings.
Agent of Allah in time/ space,
We seek knowledge of the sublime.
Vouchsafe our way, for we are but slaves of dew.
Quotes on Love and Art
"...the Imagination (or love, or sympathy, or any other sentiment) induces knowledge, and knowledge of an 'object' which is proper to it..."
And she feels for me
The obsessive desire
That I feel for her,
Then, in the sweltering heat of noon,
In her tent, in secret,
We will meet
To fulfill the promise completely...
We will reveal the passion
We feel one for the other
As well as the harshness of the trial
And the pains of ecstasy.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
A Brief Overview of the Eulessynian Hot Tub Mystery Religion
In 1991, the Eulessynian Hot Tub Mystery Religion bubbled up from a unique confluence of circumstances in
The resultant synergy yielded another odd type of event, the Gymnasium, gymnosophy appealing to the heads and hearts of these spa-loving freaks. When Alexander the Macedonian reached the Indian sub-continent in the 4th century, he encountered the naked sages or “gymnosophists,” and dispatched the Greek philosopher Onesicritus to try to fathom their ways. The gymnosophists also knocked the socks off of Pyrrho, the founder of the Sceptics, who incorporated nudism into his philosophy. The Gymniasium of our Mysterians will be discussed at greater length at the appropriate time.
As a Mystery Religion, the HTMR embraced the ideas of individual and group gnosis over blind faith, free association over indoctrination and egalitarian discovery over hierarchical intercessory politics. The hot tub or hot spring is seen as the balance of the classical elements: earth hosting fire heating water generating air bubbles, all under the quintessential governance of spirit. Experiments were as popular as rituals. Hospitality enjoyed special emphasis, with the cult hosting traveling students, musicians and special guests. When Mysterians weren’t soaking in a rolling Jacuzzi overlooking a gentle valley, they frequently gathered at Forbidden Books in
In 1995, the Hot Tub Mystery Religion was recognized as a fellow body by Thom Metzger of the Moorish Orthodox Church of America and editor of the Moorish Science Monitor. Once again, networks of fellowship emerging through ‘zine culture proved catalytic for the young Mystery Religion, which had its own clandestinely Xeroxed house organ by this time.
In 1997, CESNUR, the Center for Study of New Religions, welcomed two apologists from the HTMR to present at their annual conference in
At this time, the Khalwat-i-Khidr (“Hermitage of the Green Prophet”) had been formally established as the
In 2003, a profile of the Hot Tub Mystery Religion appeared in Reason magazine, offering tidbits like:
One of the group's early inspirations was Alexander Scriabin, a Russian composer of the late 19th and early 20th centuries who dreamed of creating a work of art that would occupy every sense, driving the audience into a transcendental state. (The piece, called "The Mysterium," was to be performed in a specially built cathedral in India. It required, among other elements, "an orchestra, a large mixed choir, an instrument with visual effects, dancers, a procession, incense, and rhythmic textural articulation" -- not to mention bells suspended from zeppelins.) The Hot Tub group's installations combined music, visual art, food, and sometimes mind-altering chemicals, along with symbols from Sufism, the Cabala, and other sources. [Yehoodi] participated in an annual Halloween event called the Disturbathon, which existed somewhere in the hazy territory between performance art and a haunted house. "It involved nudism in a maze-like environment," he recalls, "and there was inevitably some kind of pit."